Dear Diary,
My life is still like blank paper. All this years i never had a relationship.
I did tried to find. But didn't work out well. So i give up.
I keep telling myself being single is good, carefree.. can do anything i want! blah...blah...blah!!!
But sometime i really hope someone will be there for me when ever i feel sad, or maybe share my happiness with me.
In the last few days, something came upon me, and somehow I'm beginning to accept "reality".
Another year already come to an end, with it I shall close another chapter of my life. I've
finally decided that what has happened in the last few months is just a dream that I've
conjured up. The words, the intentions, I've just deliberately distort them to keep my hope
alive.
So for 2008, I shall try to stop my infactuation for HIM. It's going to be tough, but I know
like all my previous crush, I will forget HIM.
I know one day, the same sequence will happen again, and again.... I guess that is how it's
going to be, always trying to love and yet ending up being loveless.
It's such a bitter sweet process, each and every one of them. Worst of all I know it's
happening, but I can't stop it from happening, or maybe I just want it to happen.
Loving, and forgetting, loving and forgetting...... Come to think about it, I never did
forget, it's just that the memories are more distant.....
Another year, another time, it was never about finding "the one", it was about experiencing
every one and to continue in believing in "the one". Hope lives when you believe.
Am I in denial? Of course I am. But if no one is getting hurt, being in denial can be a
blessing.
Ive been partying since i was 16. and I'm 28 now .u do the maths. i also happen to know loads of people in the clubs. LOADS. flirt from one bunch to another, get drinks,chat then move
on. And cos I'm easygoing, people think that i sleep around a lot. I'm like WHAT? nights out
are fun but undoubtedly, i always go home alone.
BUT, if i were to bump into somebody who's just my type.i don't mind giving it another shot.
this might sound cliched. but I'm not bitter. cynical and pragmatic. but am not bitter. my
longest relationship was lasted 2 years. :) eh? i AM capable of getting into relationships
and giving my heart away. not THAT cold and vicious and mean, thank you very much! haha!
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!
-CARLO-
