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Come Rain Come Shine

So here it is... saturday... raining... and im still in my pjs. im supposed to be going out today, but im not sure if i still am. i chill with my friends last nite and had so much fun! I don't have a boyfriend right now and I kind of like it,better like that so I can go out and party and have fun, Don`t get me wrong I'm not looking for a quick fuck... boy,i just wanna have fun!

Adapt or give up!

What i am looking for in a relationship is the good and bad time we have been through along the way. No one is perfectly compatible to anyone else in the world, through discussion, disagreement and quarrel, we know each other better, and finally come up with solution(s) - adapt or give up.

Keep your self busy!

I never thought

My world right now is starting to fall in to place... Just like how it used to be before. The only difference now is that there's a gigantic hole in my heart and there's questions, dreams and hopes for my future that I never thought of before.

I don't regret my past relationships at all . Though some relationships have changed me I know for sure there were life lessons I picked up. I learned how to trust again...to let myself live...I'm not afraid to say that I got to experience falling deeep in love....I got to feel what its like to really be with someone that you loved and loved you greatly and that feels great.



I can't tell you enough or in the right words how sorry I am for the things that I've done. I wish I could take back the cheating, lying, and deception. You were supposed to be the person I loved more than anything, and I betrayed you and hurt you the worst that I could have. I wish I could be stronger at times when we're fighting to not egg it on and to be able to just apologize to you and make it stop. I love you, and I'l pray every night for us to get back the trust and love we once had.

I am truly sorry for lying to u. I didn't understand how much I was hurting you.I did something wrong and so now I have to feel bad Forgive me.
I love you boo and no matter where life takes me, i will always care for you and love you..


For everyone

for my boo...thanks for everything....

A Forbidden Love

Things had passed, and things had gone. and it's either irrelevant to write every memory that had happened during the time i have not written or maybe i do not want to write it, because its painstaking.

But i wrote for the sake of the people who enjoy reading my journal and it is, through them, that i get my energy of writing again. even if it hurts to remember.

The uglier the truth, the more truth lies in it. makes sense?

Sometimes, i wish of death, not suicidal but something like the earth would swallow me so that this would all end. These are some mornings when I cry and cry and mourn for myself. Some mornings, I’m so angry and bitter. But it doesn’t last too long. Then I get up and say, 'I want to live'.

I'm writing this because what if tomorrow never comes?

What if i never get to say I'm sorry or I love you tomorrow?

The hardest thing for me to do is I have to let you go and I know in my heart that I dont want to - I never have. I will miss you more than I can express - but I have to accept that sometimes you cant undo the hurt. Sometimes you just have to let someone be free. I pray that if you ever miss me you will seek me out - the door is always open. I love you. I pray that my sincere apology reaches you through whatever means and that you will find peace in your heart with me. I am sorry I lied to you.

I know that you may not trust me right now, so I will have to be patient, and that is very hard for me. I love you very much and I want to keep you in my life forever.


Dont Say Goodbye

my life before was so lonely
my world became dull and empty
i thought there would be no happiness
just when i thought of your existence

i never thought there's still someone
who's so much nice and true
who always gives me the reason to cheer up
when i'm down and blue

and this time i guess i have to be contented
that once in my life i met and have you
my special someone..

Harold thanks for being here with me, thanks for being you.

Love Generation

(Bam, bam, baba bam, bam,)
(Baba bam, bam, baba bam babam.......)

From Jamaica to the world,
This is just love,
This is just love,

Why must our children play in the streets,
Broken hearts and faded dreams,
Listen up to everyone that you meet,
Don't you worry, it could be so sweet,
Just look to the rainbow, you will see
Sun will shine till eternity,
I've done for much love in my heart,
No-one can tear it apart,

Feel the love generation,
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
Feel the love generation,
C'mon c'mon c'mon c'mon yeah,


Feel the love generation,
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Feel the love generation,
Ooohhh yeah-yeah,

Don't worry about a thing,
It's gonna be alright,
Don't worry about a thing,
It's gonna be alright,
Don't worry about a thing,
It's gonna be alright,
Gonna be, gonna, gonna, gonna be alright,

Why must our children play in the streets,
Broken hearts and faded dreams,
Listen up to everyone that you meet,
Don't you worry, it could be so sweet,
Just look to the rainbow, you will see
Sun will shine till eternity,
I've done for much love in my heart,
No-one can tear it apart,



ai, i havent really been updating much at all. things have not been going well recently but theres still some ups too. harold pops in my head here n there. cant avoid that problem i cant elaborate much the only other one that i can think of is befriend with him. im not good w/ friends now. its weird, im hanging out w/ other ppl now, im not talking to my other friends that much n it sux.its been such a stressed out week, actually more of like month. oh well yet stupid.

Secret Crush

Be still me heart, just hush.
I'll get rid of this big bad crush.
If only you knew how much I care.
The kind of love I have for you is rare.
You don't even know my heart's on fire.
You're the one that I desire.
I dream of kissing your sweet lips.
But when I wake, away you slip.
Be still my heart, just hush.
I'll get rid of this big bad crush.
I wish I could tell you how I feel.
Then your touches I wouldn't have to steal.
You would be mine, I wouldn't have to dream.
I could be with you always.
I wouldn't have to scheme.
This secret is so hard to keep.
Into my heart its etched so deep.


Work Fit Out Baby

keeping it fit.

I Like To Get High

We're sick of being tired ~~ we all want to get wired
We just want to tweak, and stay up for a week!
The lights are always on, we are constantly awake.
We go to people's houses to see what we can take.

We scrub our carpets with a brush, our floors with a rag.
We clean our house for hours, then chase down the bag.
We're paranoid and schitze, but not afraid of Death.
Scandalous and Dishonest, but loyal to our Drug.

At times we are confused, we can't seem to understand
What's happened to our lives, why we're outcasts of the land.
At times we act so crazy, people think we are insane
Irrational thoughts are always running through our brain.

What a high it is, for those of us who deal,
Slinging all the cutter, so we can do the real.
We come up fast ~ we make money by the scores
Everyone's our friend ~ we're surrounded by bag whores.
We blame it on society, cause we're loyal to our Drug.


When your being ignore....

Isn't it obvious that he doesnt have feelings for you, cuz if he did, then he would be with you and not with another person..right? Reality check!!!! Try to figure it out and put some sense into your head.. It will hurt you more if you dont see the truth as it is, dont force yourself to someone who doesnt want you anymore cuz it will only make you a fool.. Save yourself!!! Get a Life!!!

**This is dedicated to all the men and women who are hung up on their EX-BOYFRIENDS/GIRLFRIENDS..just a lil piece of advice.. being a martyr doesnt make you a saint nor will it make life easier and better for you.. GET REAL!!!

e+k= k-hole

this is bad.... i partied for so much this week...i went out last nite and i told myself no im not gonna drink too much coz i havent ate.. next thing i know i was drinking like a dumbass... and i was stoned too coz i partee and take some k. i wanted to dance so bad but i was too embarassed but then when the alcohol+e+k finally kicked in, i was at d dance floor with this one guy i dont even know.. but what i dont like is the music in bed,u know its not really good idea to partee there cos of there music waaaa i dont wanna say somthing bad but crap i couldnt even walk straight omg i just feel so bad coz i didnt wanna party like that woops i feel so nauseated ryt now... not cool! so not cool! i want this feeling to go away now! no more partee for me dis week....chillout

When you love someone

When you think of your past love,you may view it was a failure.but when you find a new love,you may veiw the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn't really matter who won or who lost. What important is that you know when to hold on and when to let go! You know you realy love someone when you want him/her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you're not part of it...Everything happens for the best. IF the person you love doesn't love you back, don't be affraid to love someone else again, For you'll never know unless you give it a try. you'll never love a person you unless you risk for love. LOVE strives in HURTING... If you don't get hurt, you don't learn how to love...wana feel love? kiss the flame and feel the pain...