Why is it so hard to find the right guy?

This song explains why I am so afraid of commiting to a relationship with. I have been burnt way to many times and have had the game played on me too much. My heart is tired of that hurt, and I have guarded it too much, to keep from getting hurt, and I feel I have pushed away,
with the way I guard my heart.
oh life... why its always like everytime i like someone
he's always like already in a relationship.
And that makes me really really really SAD :(
why is so hard to find a person to share your life with???
"It is so hard to find a genuine relationship."
sucks!

-CARLO

My Greatest ambition

I like older muscular guys with huge dicks. not much into looks, money and brains
but at least have a muscular healthy body. That's all i'm asking...

My ultimate fantasy is to be gangbanged by all pumped-up sweaty kanto-looking
bodybuilders with b.o. shooting off their loads inside me at the kanto gym. I just
love the musky smell of men, semen, armpits, singits, unwashed underwear, and
sometimes kupal... Well assuming these men are all healthy.

If i have money, i would like to have an orgy with basketball players,
machodancers, models and celebs why not, and gym instructors at ff. but i couldn't even afford to enter ff. good thing god gave me just enough.

I love pornstars Jeff Palmer, Tom Chase, Mike Branson, Nacho Vidal and Carlos
Morales. i also like pinoy boldstars Gino Antonio, Anton Bernardo (the ultimate
pinoy sex god for me), John Apacible, Jay Manalo and Carlo Maceda.
i tried having sex in an office, the kitchen and on the car. i would also like to
try on the bus, over the mountains, in an airplane, and maybe in a public restroom.
i like vanilla sex but sometimes i also like being hot and raunchy. I really love
cuddling, to fuck and be fucked, doggystyle while kissing behind, long sessions of
69, loud moaning, pinoy dirty talking, and maybe if pushed to the extreme, double
fucking.

My greatest ambition is to be the ultimate pokpok, or sex machine and hope to
redeem all the lonely gay's insatiable hunger for meat. How i wish my toes and
fingers are all huge hung dicks so i can accomodate all of them. do condoms come in
gloves?

Please don't judge me, i'm only malibog to the one i'm gonna fall in love with...

-

CARLO

HAHAHA... so so funny!

From G4M ID HUSTLER Profile NO:1205851

*Peace KUYA*

Boyfriend on The Dancefloor?

Dear Diary,


Im dating someone who likes going to club every weekend,well i wouldn't call myself a party boy per se...
but I do club occasionally... sometimes on my own.

So, perhaps I still qualify to be a clubber.... I Just wanna know A relationship with a clubber, Can it last? so this is my two cents worth as a "clubber"

From my perspective, clubbing is to socialise, show off & have fun.

I do get a little naughty on the dance floor sometimes, get a little touchy feel-ly and stuff...
But I don't think that means anything at all.

I find the whole point of going clubbing is to let your hair down... and lose your inhibitions. (Frankly, I don't get the people who go to clubs, just to stand around.) But so call "loose" behaviour on the dance floor doesn't mean this clubber is available for casual sex.


It is what it is... "naughty behaviour on the dance floor" nothing more nothing less.I have had two indecent proposals thrown at me... but I don't find it difficult at all to refuse them. Why? Because I know what it is to have sex with the guy you love. Casual sex just doesn't cut it.


So can a relationship with a clubber last? Well, I am a human being, I too want love and
stability... And I am also actively looking and dating... so for my sake, I certainly hope it does.

At the end of it... it's all about respect and trust. I respect him enough to know my limits and he respect and trusts me to be sensible and faithful.


-CARLO-

some lovin...

Dear Diary,

My life is still like blank paper. All this years i never had a relationship.
I did tried to find. But didn't work out well. So i give up.

I keep telling myself being single is good, carefree.. can do anything i want! blah...blah...blah!!!

But sometime i really hope someone will be there for me when ever i feel sad, or maybe share my happiness with me.

In the last few days, something came upon me, and somehow I'm beginning to accept "reality".

Another year already come to an end, with it I shall close another chapter of my life. I've
finally decided that what has happened in the last few months is just a dream that I've
conjured up. The words, the intentions, I've just deliberately distort them to keep my hope
alive.

So for 2008, I shall try to stop my infactuation for HIM. It's going to be tough, but I know
like all my previous crush, I will forget HIM.

I know one day, the same sequence will happen again, and again.... I guess that is how it's
going to be, always trying to love and yet ending up being loveless.

It's such a bitter sweet process, each and every one of them. Worst of all I know it's
happening, but I can't stop it from happening, or maybe I just want it to happen.

Loving, and forgetting, loving and forgetting...... Come to think about it, I never did
forget, it's just that the memories are more distant.....

Another year, another time, it was never about finding "the one", it was about experiencing
every one and to continue in believing in "the one". Hope lives when you believe.

Am I in denial? Of course I am. But if no one is getting hurt, being in denial can be a
blessing.

Ive been partying since i was 16. and I'm 28 now .u do the maths. i also happen to know loads of people in the clubs. LOADS. flirt from one bunch to another, get drinks,chat then move
on. And cos I'm easygoing, people think that i sleep around a lot. I'm like WHAT? nights out
are fun but undoubtedly, i always go home alone.

BUT, if i were to bump into somebody who's just my type.i don't mind giving it another shot.
this might sound cliched. but I'm not bitter. cynical and pragmatic. but am not bitter. my
longest relationship was lasted 2 years. :) eh? i AM capable of getting into relationships
and giving my heart away. not THAT cold and vicious and mean, thank you very much! haha!


HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!


-CARLO-